It will be almost 1 month since my husband abandon me. I'm still here picking up the pieces, trying hard to move forward. Wow. . .if someone had told me a year ago that this would happen to me, I would not have believed it. Right now it seems like a distant dream. If anyone ever knew what my husband did to me during the course of our marriage, the image that he makes for himself on Facebook, other websites, his family and friends would be utterly destroyed.
Is it better that he left me? Yes! It's the way that he left me is what hurts the most. The Lord spoke to me and told me that the way that I had been hurt was unjustly done. He asked me to forgive him. It was hard to keep the hate from bubbling into my heart, but I forgave him. Then the Lord had me to send him an email telling him that I truly forgive him and I did. It was so funny. because his response to me was I'm coming to get my things around the 28th and 29th. LOL LOL. When he left me I text, emailed asking him what he wanted me to do with his things, he snuffed me and did not answer. So in the process of clearing this house, his things went to good will. I let him know that. I don't think he believes me. Why would I pay for a storage bill for his things? I would have if he had told me his plans and we had talked about a separation.
Sometimes I feel an excitement growing in me about a new beginning. Satan is busy. Very busy; dashing my hopes at times, throwing memories at me to make me break down, but only God gets the glory! My breaking down helps me to rid my heart of the hurts and heal my soul.
I don't know what tomorrow will bring for me or the next month and etc., but I will depend on the Lord to get me there and to put me back on my feet. He is making me stronger every day and like now I feel His Spirit surrounding me GLORY! GLORY! I need the Lord and I ask God to forgive me for concentrating more on my marriage than on Him. Forgive me for not putting You first Lord.
In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost:
Amen
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