I AM STILL LEARNING. . . .

This has been a very laid back and dreary weekend. Not saying that we didn't need the rain, but it had this melancholy feel to it. I climbed the walls with frustration and found myself leaving home just to breath a little.

I spent Friday shopping with my sister . . . looking for a couple of dresses for some main  events that we have in church for the next few months and for myself, I've decided to leave the city that I have known for most of my life. It's so funny. The decision is bitter-sweet. When I finally decided to leave mid October, this great weight lifted from my shoulders and I felt so good, but on the other hand I cried. I always felt that my place was here with family, people I went to school with, and memories of always belonging.

I don't feel a belonging anymore nor do I feel a since of fitting in. It's sad to say, but I allowed my husband to soil all that I knew and loved here. 

I've faced my demons here and it's time to move on. If it's God's will for me to return, I'll be back to live here. It's time for a change for me. I'm looking forward to this move.

Some things are meant to happen. We may not be able to explain or understand certain events in our lives, but I've always believed in all causes lead to effects; rather good or bad. I'm learning every day to let go and let God. There are only certain things in our lives that He allows us to have a measure of control over. The percentage of those measures are very slim. . .

Good Night and love you!

Vee