Right now I see some good in me being here without all of my family. The Lord knows that I tend to take on more than I can handle without His will being considered or asked about. One of my many faults (smile). I continue to seek Him on what He would have me to do.
I have been reaching up in prayer about my health. I am praying that the Lord heals my body. I've made a mental list of some of the things I desire to do here or at home. I want to take a dance class, dibble in photography, take an art class, visit some friends living out of state, and some other things. I am looking forward to doing those things, along with spending more time with family even if I have to travel home to do so. I want to enjoy life and to capture some of the life I allowed others to steal from me.
I am smiling more. I catch myself smiling or laughing more. I like that and I thank God for the many smiles. I find myself wanting to be alone and I won't pick up the phone to call anyone. There are times I let the phone just ring and won't return calls right away. I need this time to heal completely. I don't want the superficial healing that we as Christians sometimes want, I want the complete healing of forgiving others, myself, healing of my Spirit man, my Soul, mind, my body, and mental health. I want it from the inside first to the outside. Some think that it can't be done, but it can. You have to let go and let God touch those places that only He can dwell.
Father God,
You created me and you know what
I need in my life. I ask for you to
come in and heal in all the areas that
I have listed. I ask that you make me stronger
mentally and physically to enjoy life to
the fullest, but most of all Lord, help me
with my calling. Send me to the people you
have awaiting your word to help me understand
and develop the calling you have entrusted me with.
In Jesus Christ Name
Amen. . . .
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