A THURSDAY THOUGHT .. .. .. .. ..

For the last few weeks, I have spent a lot of time in my bedroom thinking, thinking, and just thinking. I guess that includes wondering about things Lol Lol. 

I am amazed at how much time that has past since being here, but I trust in the Lord and realize that He never gave me a time frame on how long. I never asked. I always expect the now. 

The Lord clearly states for us to wait on Him. I know that when I wait, I Do Not  go through the drama. When I don't wait for God, my life becomes a demolition field of mistakes, regrets, and hurts.  I'm too old and too tired to continue down that path.

Although I have gain wisdom through those mistakes, I've realized that the older I get, the harder it is for me to rebound.  Lord the rebounds are wearing me out. My tactics are so old.

I realize that everyday is not full of roses, but I want the peace in the valley, the happiness within myself and the love growing endlessly inside and around me. 

Father God,

Thank You! Thank You for your Grace and Mercy. 

Thank You for your Forgiving heart. Teach me

Lord how to forgive myself. I noted that when I 

can not forgive myself, it takes longer for me to

move forward. I allow the enemy to invade my mind and

that is not what You want for me nor I for myself

Protect me Lord from hurt, harm, and danger.

Continue

to surround me with endless love and your presence

continuously. I ask that you remember my sister

Dear Lord.  Camp your Angels around her and protect her.

Give her a clear mind Lord and protect her from the wilds of  the

enemy.

In Jesus Christ Name

Always giving You the Praise, the Glory, and the 

Honor. . . .

Amen!

  

LIFE MORE ABUNDANTLY .. .. .. ..

It's already Wednesday, just 2 days before the weekend. Time is moving fast. I have been considering not moving home. The only difference is that I do not know anyone here and have not had the opportunity to meet anyone my age.

Right now I see some good in me being here without all of my family. The Lord knows that I tend to take on more than I can handle without His will being considered or asked about. One of my many faults (smile). I continue to seek Him on what He would have me to do.

I have been reaching up in prayer about my health. I am praying that the Lord heals my body. I've made a mental list of some of the things I desire to do here or at home. I want to take a dance class, dibble in photography, take an art class, visit some friends living out of state, and some other things. I am looking forward to doing those things, along with spending more time with family even if I have to travel home to do so. I want to enjoy life and to capture some of the life I allowed others to steal from me.

I am smiling more. I catch myself smiling or laughing more. I like that and I thank God for the many smiles. I find myself wanting to be alone and I won't pick up the phone to call anyone. There are times I let the phone just ring and won't return calls right away. I need this time to heal completely. I don't want the superficial healing that we as Christians sometimes want, I want the complete healing of forgiving others, myself, healing of my Spirit man, my Soul, mind, my body, and mental health.  I want it from the inside first to the outside. Some think that it can't be done, but it can. You have to let go and let God touch those places that only He can dwell. 

Father God,

You created me and you know what

I need in my life. I ask for you to

come in and heal in all the areas that

I have listed. I ask that you make me stronger

mentally and physically to enjoy life to

the fullest, but most of all Lord, help me

with my calling. Send me to the people you

have awaiting your word to help me understand

and develop the calling you have entrusted me with.

In Jesus Christ Name

Amen. . . .