They say it's cold outside with rain and possibly sleet on the way. I welcome it today. It's good resting and sleeping weather.
So many thoughts lately. One thought his am I living or not living?
In some instances, I found myself waiting. Waiting for resources, waiting for the healing to be completed in my life. waiting to get my own place to stay. Waiting, waiting, waiting (smile).
Does it matter? Yes, but I have no control over my circumstances. I am realizing that I never had the control now or never. I'm just realizing that God has always had the control. Before my marriage, during my marriage, and even now, after my marriage.
Whatever control I thought I had. . . (greater word or words to remember . . .I thought) God has shown me that He knows what is better for me. To be honest, I don't have the slightest Idea what is better for me. . .except one thing.. .. My husband's leaving me was the best thing for me. A very huge mistake that I made.
Healing has been so hard. Getting back on my feet has been so hard.
The Lord will get me there. I count on that and I know in my heart that He will, but for now.. ..just let me cry, because it's part of my healing. If you see me starring into space, just let me do that, because I am looking to see or hear a word from God. I am learning patience and speaking to the Lord from my heart.
Most of all. . .I am healing inside out.
Thank You Lord
Veronica
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