Monday, September 16, 2013

TRAPPED INSIDE A HALF FILLED GLASS

 I've been moving around in slow motion; often feeling like I am trapped inside a glass. I can't move in any direction. I'm smothered.

I am in a routine that's leading me nowhere. I go to work Monday - Friday. Each day that I come home, I face depression just waiting to strangle me. The one that I call my husband, my soul mate, my lover, my help mate (I have discovered recently) is my depression. I love him, I need him, and I want what every woman desires.  .  .  .to be needed, cherished, and desired. 

My desire is to break free from this mundane existence. To travel the unknown (as we use to), and to enjoy life that we have with no restrictions.

I need a break from it all. My job, my better half, to enjoy me; the way I use to before marriage. The joy of just being alive. I've promised myself that I will soon break free of this half filled glass
soon. Everyday I've added water to this glass and soon it will be full and I will flow out of it easily.

 Everyday I have prayed with every drop that enters the glass. It may be months, a year, but I will get there with the help of God. This promise I have given to myself. 

Once I have reached the top, I pray that the Lord will guide me as I flow into deliverance.

Thank you Lord God for teaching me patience, humility, and the long suffering that I have endured is soon to cease.

Father God, I claim my deliverance Now!

Your daughter and your servant for every more.

Vee

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