DISCLOSURE. . . .

Finding someone you want to be with is sometimes the hardest thing to do. I find that letting down my defenses and letting myself feel is a wonderful thing. I strongly believe that in all relationships you have to share some measure of yourself before it (the relationship) can evolve. One should never push or become manipulative in making it happen. Just let yourself move slowly through each day. . . an inch at a time.

And then there is this acceptance thing. It's very important. There is no Mr. Perfect (lol). We all have our peculiar, undesirable, and habitual ways. If your spouse or significant other can deal with those things about you and you with them, then I know it's a good relationship. I have my peculiar, undesirable, and yes habitual ways. I can really be a world class "bitch" at times lol. It takes a very strong man to deal with me lol, but my friend deals with all my faults, never forgetting to tell me that my good qualities outweighs my bad ones (smile). I am not forgetting that he has his faults too, but the same is true on my end. His good qualities definitely outweighs his bad ones and that makes me want to hang in there a lot longer than I normally would.

I've always been sort of a flight risk when it comes to relationships. I am learning that my running is baggage for past experiences. You can't bring a lot of baggage into a new relationship lol. It reeks of a disaster waiting to happen. It's typically doomed before it gets started.

So I've asked myself time and again. . . .how do I discard all the baggage to at least give myself a chance to feel, a chance to trust, and to feel whole again? My only answer is that you can not discard every bit of discontent that is bagged up in your life in one day. It took a long time for me to store all the rubbish in my life into some suitcases to drag around with me and although it will not take as long to unpack, I find myself sifting through it's contents and unloading some articles to make my life a lot lighter in my journeys.

Unpacking trust is the hardest for me. . .and for most others too. I like most women (and men) unpack trust and place it back time and again wondering am I ready to use this one with that special someone? Some say that you can't love a person if you don't trust them. I beg to differ with that analogy. You can love a person with all your heart and not trust them. God says to love each other, but He also warns His children to trust no man. Hummmmmmmmmm? I think I have to keep trust packed for a good while and even then no man is worth me trusting 100%. I trust God to touch my man to do what is right toward me, but that is as far as it will go lol lol.

I have two of the most important elements on my list that I find difficult for the mortal man to do 100%. One is trusting each other and the other is keeping promises. I've learned the hard way about promising folks things. My motto is to tell you that I will do my best and the other is I am trustworthy to a certain extent. I am human. I do not purposely "screw" anyone, but I am prone to making mistakes and forgetting easily. I call this "Pivoting to the Right." We are all known to do that from time to time.

Well the morning is off and running. . . .leaving me behind and I've got a 101 things to do today.

God Bless And Until The Next Time . . . . .
Vee