My hurts were so indescribably twisted and it felt as though it was never ending. I had my highs and lows through it all. One while I felt so good. I felt happy, and so complete within myself. Then the crying would take over. I could not understand what was happening to me in this broken state that I was in.
Slowly God would take the hurt away, the pain, the confusion, and replaced it with love, forgiving, happiness, and peace. So so much peace entered my soul. More importantly forgiveness began to touch me and through that the happiness started building once again.
Through all of this, the most wonderful thing took place. It was so unbelievably exciting, unexpectedly delightful. I met an amazing man in Christ who became my best friend. . . who spoke words of healing without criticizing me. Who would whip my tears away and made me laugh more than I have in this year and five months of separation and months of hurting before then.
Our friendship grew with great respect for one another and then love. Yea. . .love. I laugh because it took us both by surprise and it was a pleasant surprise.
The Lord has dealt with me about my divorce. That is next on my agenda . No complications to my divorce. The most important thing is that even if this relationship does not work out. . .. I am able to move forward. I'm okay, but my companion has stated that we are to move forward together.. When he finishes his studies and gets ordained, I hope that my divorce will be finalized And whatever God has for Us. . . .it will be for Us.
God Bless and
Good Night. . . .
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