GOD'S PROMISE. . .

This morning I was led to read Isaiah 40:1-31. Very uplifting to me. Sometimes I feel as though God has forgotten me, but he hasn't. I find myself clinging to His presence. He may withdraw it for a while, but He's still there. That's when our faith comes into play. . .knowing that even if you don't feel Him, you know He's still there with you.

As I was driving this morning, I thought to myself that I wish that I could just keep going and wherever my car stops or take me, it would not be far enough:) away from my problems, my hurts, or my not understanding of so many things. Then reality steps in and you think . . . .The things I am going through is like a heavy baggage that I am carrying around with me and I have to take it with me everywhere until I am completely unpacked.

Forgiveness is a funny thing. We think that we forgive people until God surely steps in and show you that you haven't really done that. I've decided that every day when the thoughts of my husband comes to my mind, I will say I forgive you, I forgive you, I forgive you! I figure that if I say it long enough meaning each time, I will truly get there.

I miss the presence of my husband and some of the good things we shared, but I don't miss the hell that I went through with him. Then I thought. . . .if you take a whole pie and use a tablespoon to scoop out a portion to eat is how much of the good times that I remember. The rest was full of his drug addition, his thirst of infidelity, and his abandoning me. More hurts than good memories. I'm blessed that I am not in that any more. The constant threats from drug dealers, the lack of money, the constant lies, and always wondering if he is alive and okay when he's out in the streets getting high.

I'm blessed that I am here through all of that. God covered me and that I will always remember. He is still covering me.

The Lord always says to me "Be still and know that I am the Lord thy God!"  That will always be enough for me.

Thank You Lord!

Vee