LOVE. . . . .

Yesterday I thought about the word LOVE and wondered if the Webster's Dictionary fully described this awesome but complicated word. I don't think so.

Webster says first that it is the fatherly concern that God has for mankind. Yes. . . but, still complicated. Why? Everyone is not capable of feeling that description. Not even some Christians.

Next it says a warm attraction between two. Hummmmm. Still not a full description. A sexual attraction between two. I am not sexually attracted to everyone I claim to love. Very confusing definition.

You can't describe the word Love (my opinion). It's an emotion that is and can be overwhelming, indescribable (surpassing any description), and complicated. I guess that is why we continuously use the word so loosely.

A test. Ask your spouse to give you their definition of the word love (they may start out saying "gee I don't know honey" lol). Listen closely to their description and last ask them why do they love you (they may start out by saying it like this. . ."Weeelllllll I love you because. . ." hummmmm lol lol). Ah don't get upset or scared from their description. It dosen't mean that they don't love you. The point is to view the word from another point of view (smile).

Now you may say "wonder how Vee views the word?" I just did previously (it is an emotion that is confusing, indescribable, and overwhelming.), but I will also describe it as unconditional (not limited to, no conditions to). The word love varies from situation to situation, for one person to another, and unconditionally.

I've also learned that you may truly love someone, but hate their actions, some ways about them, or etc. . . We may sometime feel that we hate that person, but we don't. We hate the things about them and what they do. To some that is complicated, but we have to realize that we are not perfect ourselves. My husband once said to me, Baby I love you with all my heart, but I hate that you do this, that, and the other. Defensive me said "yea and I hate you too lol lol" Later when I was fuming to myself. . . I settled down and thought. . . .He never said he hated me. He said he hated some of my actions. I apologized later and felt awful about saying those words to him. I'm getting there.

So now we are learning to think before we say and I'm learning not to be so defensive. Everyone is not out to get me lol lol. I have a strong demanding voice that can get loud when I am angry or excited. I'm learning to turn it down a notch or 2 lol lol. We are learning that it is not always about ourselves now, but about the respect for each other, compromising, and maintaining what we have and growing on it. We now have time out corners in the house lol lol (we made sure that we have TVs in those rooms lol lol). Actions of the word love.

I'm trying to put to use what I am learning with him and with others. My hope is that he is trying to put to use what he is learning with me and with others.

It's never to late to learn. I will be 50 this summer and find myself learning a whole lot that I thought I already knew. Speaking for myself . . . . I think I know everything (smile). I don't. What I do know (which is a lot smile) and have obtained is wisdom from God. It has been taught through harsh and enlightening experiences in my life that was, is, and will be ordained by God the father for his use for me in his Kingdom.

I never share anything that has not happened to me. Trust me. . . . some things that I have learned and experience has been harsh through my life and I don't wish that anyone should, could, or have to go through. This is true in anyones life. There are things that you have learned and experience that I would not wish on my worst enemy. There lies the words life and living lol lol. The intricate parts of our journey on Earth.

I've cried so many nights and days asking God "Why me. Why do I have to go through this or that, or why the pain." Each time He spoke to my spirit He asked me "Why not you?" He takes my mind back to the scripture describing the Death of Jesus. His hurts were deeper than mine. He bored the hurts of all mankind. His pain was far worst than any pain that I would be able to endure. Once again it was bored for all mankind. When God shows me that, I have to stop crying and stop complaining, because not only did he bare that for me. . .He added that extra ordinary thing called love (that word again) that has a healing affect and effect to my life.

Yes! I am a WHINER ! Note the capitalization! God is teaching me to cut the WHINING out of my life. I've gotten so bad with it that my husband rolls his eyes and walks away. Females lol lol. . .it only works for a little while. Humans get tire of the whining before God does. When God's tired of it (which takes a long time for him to chastise you about it) it's old lol lol. My husband likes the direct approach and I've gone cold turkey with the whining and putting it out on the table with out the sugar coating on it. That is what God demands of us. To be bold with fire, BUT, with a very loving touch to it. . .the same way that He is with us. My Friends. . . .That is one of the true essence of the word LOVE.

Now I am looking at so many things in a different light, including the word LOVE. I'm loving God first, myself second and all others thereafter. My life is getting richer for it and the love. . .although it is is complicated to describe, I am describing it through my walk. I don't have to describe the word any more, I'm showing it. Actions will always speak louder than any words.

Describing Love will always be difficult. The Lord understand this. That is why he tells us that if we love him, we will keep his commandments.

Vee

REVELATION. . . .

We have been having some wonderful weather. I was thinking an Early Spring, but reality checked in while listening to the Weather Station. We are slowly creeping back into colder weather. I notice the gas prices yesterday. Hummmmm. The prices are slowly creeping back up, but somethings never last forever. We just have to enjoy those things as it is given to us and prepare while the season is ripe in our favor.
Solomon was dead on when he said "To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven." We have to be wise and prepare during our harvest time (when things are plentiful to us).

During my meditation time this morning, I said to the Lord "I'm happy Lord regardless of all the things going on in my life, but there's still a sadness and a hurting inside me. I just keep moving on knowing that my season will come." I wondered to myself if Jesus was ever happy during his time on earth. The revelation that I received was that we are made in the same image of God. Although Jesus was happy in doing what God knew he had to do for us (which was his happiness), He was also sadden and hurt by the actions of man kind. Well, the Lord has a very unusual way of bringing things to you lol lol. If we think about the words of Solomon, it doesn't always mean stepping into a material blessings after a financial setback or a deliverance from situations in our lives. It can mean finishing the race (our journey) here on earth and resting in the arms of the Lord until the trumpet sounds to rise.

Has anyone ever taken note that when God intervenes he finalizes his deliverance's for us? Sure we can walk back into a situation again, but even then it's finalized by Him once again in another way, but ending in the same result. It depends upon the way we enter into our situations and how He has to bring us out each time. Just a thought. . . and taking note how God treats each one of us uniquely because our situations, lives, personalities, and etc. . . are different from each other. Hmmmmmmm?? Finish means final and that is alright with me.

Well I've asked God to do a lot of things for me. I prayed about certain things in my life continuously. I've gotten to the point that I can not pray aboutthem any more. When I started to whine to him once again (smile) I couldn't do it. I found myself just say THANK YOU LORD! THANK YOU!

There are just so many things in our lives that are too much and too big to carry. Those things will suck the life out of you. The burdens are so heavy that you literally wear them on your face, your posture, and in your body. Those are the things that suck you dry, drains your spirit, and interrupts your focuses. I've carried my burdens too too long. Last night I gave them to the Lord.

Father God. . .forgive me for caring my burdens too too long. I should have given them to you a long time ago. I should have trusted you and had faith in your judgment on so many things. Forgive me. You said on last night that you've heard my cries and you have witness me trying to battle them on my own. Thank you for your deliverance. Thank you for showing me that my burdens are too big for me. These burdens were a spiritual battle. You only required me to believe and have faith that you were working my situations to an ending and closing the chapter on them. Thank You and I give the Glory to only You.

Vee

DREAMS. . .

It's been a lot of things going on since the start of the New Year. Family illnesses, financial setbacks and gains, spouse acting crazy, and it goes on and on, but I know who can still the seas when it threatens my small boat, I know who can part the red sea when the enemy rides up to trap me, and I know who is in control of my life. . . .so I pray, let go and let God.

My late Bishop use to tell his Congregation that Prayer goes where God goes and that's everywhere. Pray moves the hand that moves the world. God hands are not shorten (Good teaching Bishop).

Sometimes it's hard to do that, but I have learned that I only defeat the purpose when I try to handle anything myself. It's that carnal part of us that thrives on control. We often make our own battles within ourselves when we pray about things and continue to try and resolve things ourselves. Somethings are just to big for me to try and resolve. So I try harder each time to let go and let God. Especially when I profess that God is the author and finisher of my fate. Everyone should know and just don't realize that we set ourselves up for satan to give us pure hell when we profess that. He's just doing his job, but I have to remember each time that it's only a test- - -imony to my faith in God. He has to gain permission to get to me, But when I focus on God. . . . When I look beyond the rainbow. . .my deliverances and my blessings await me. That's what keeps me going!

It is finally sinking in and I am learning that I should never stop dreaming. Dreams are part our my hopes and some of my desires. Those things are often my secret prayers to God. He's still very much into correcting my blunders when I have admitted to him my mistakes regardless of how big or small. The Lord is still very much into stopping the designs of the enemy. He is very much into delivering me from myself and the last time I checked the word of God. . .He said that He is very much into the the Spirit of Blessing. As looooooong as I belong to Him. . . .I know that everything- - - - will be alright.

David said that He had never seen God's seed forsaken or His seed begging for bread. Everytime I meditate on that scripture. . .It thrills me. As bad as the economy has become He has prepared a way for all of us who know him to survive. We may go down but we ain't out. If you think about it. . .you've never had to wonder where the next help will come from because he brings whatever you need to your front door.

So if you are having problems, let go and Let God. Love yourselves by loving God first. Ask Him to show you YOU! I must warn you. . . .When He shows you who you really are. . .you may not like what you learn about yourselves. It can be ugly. The best part is that once you know. . . .He'll direct you on how to create a more beautiful you and that is when loving yourself will come into play.

God Bless
Vee