My journey in the last few years or more has been hard. I wondered a lot that if I had did this, would I have saved myself so much heart ache. I think that I have beat myself up so much with that and realized that God has a way of giving a person the true meaning of humbleness. He has been giving me the lesson of humbleness.
As I have moved forward in my journey, I have still looked back and still shuddered with tears of how hard this journey has been for me and although I look forward to the new life that God is blessing me with, but I do fear the unknown.
Although I am not yet divorced, I don't see myself in another relationship, especially marriage. I want to be lead by God in where He wants me to be. Not doing that has caused me a lot of heartache.
Lord God I thank you for strengthening me through this journey. There were time and even now I felt broken, lost , and trapped within myself. Whatever you have for me, I do realize that it is for me. I thank You for all open doors that lead to where you want me to be. I thank You for holding me together when I wanted nothing but end the life that hurt and haunted me so badly.
Strength is what I needed and strength is what you gave to me and I thank you Father God.
In Jesus Precious Name
Amen!
