As I look into my eyes, I often wonder what it would be like to just turn the clock back on my life ten years. It is very unfortunate that I can't. That's not the way God does things.
There are no lessons learned when the clocks are turned back, no wisdom gained, and certainly no spiritual growth.
But if I could turn back the time, my eyes would not be so sad. Sadness of lost, betrayal, and not being used or manipulated by someone that you thought loved you.
I try so very hard to keep positive by reminding myself of God's promises. I know that He sees everything that is going on in my life. Regardless of everything that is going on, He has blessed me in the mist of it all. He promised me that he is preparing a new thing for me and everything that I have lost, He will restore it better than what I thought I had. I guess it would not bother me so much if I were younger and going through this, but I am 55 years old. Most people, especially women are established at that age. but I'm not established. The most important thing and foremost is that I am established in the Lord.
Lord what would I do without you? You've taken away the pain slowly but surely, when I think that I am going to break down, He gives me strength to continue on. When I thought about ending it all, God takes hold of my mind and prevents me from doing anything crazy.
And i think to myself. . . Psalm 8:4 . . . .What is man that thou art mindful of him? And the Son of man that thou visits him? That is unconditional love. . . Love that I try to have for those who hurt and wronged me.
trying hard to see things from their prospective.
God I love you. . .I depend on you. ..never anyone else. Soon the sad eye that sits in this picture will be a smiling eye. An eye that shows the love, forgiveness, and the happiness that only you can give to me.
Amen
