Having thoughts of great expectations in my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. . .Who has taken me through this last tremendously hurtful time in my life. Only through the Grace of God that I see so many things with clarity now. Sometimes when we are right in the mist of so much in our lives, we are unable to see anything. . .especially what God wants us to see.
It's only through His Grace that I am healing mentally, physically, and emotionally. There are so many times that I smile to myself now and thank my Heavenly Father for so much. He is far beyond the word Awesome and I raise my hands up to try to capture his hand. . never wanting to let go.
I am growing in your Grace now Lord. I had to be so broken to get there. And as others gathered around feeling satisfied in what was happening to me, as others smirked behind my back, Some of the ones who called me friend. . . they were too blind to see that it was a spiritual situation that I was going through. Forgetting that they were one time in the mist of troubles, hurts, disappointments, and more. . .they triumphed over what was happening to me. I worried what my friends were thinking. . .silly me. I was still blinded by what was going on.
I fought a battle for 8 years. . . one that I did not have to fight. I've made mistakes, and I have prayed so hard. . .not understanding that everything we pray for is not going to be given to us. I PRAYED IN VEIN!
The only thing that matters to me now is that God has set me aside for HIS USE! I have no answers to what my future holds. . .but God does. He is giving me the direction and I am going on blind faith. . .because that is what faith is all about.
My real friends that truly prayed for me. . . Thank You! I pray that God rains down blessing on you!
I thank God for getting stronger everyday, healing in my body everyday, and loving me for who I am everyday. And as I leave this part of my life behind in the very near future, I only look at what God has waiting for me.
My Destination is Beyond the Blue. . .
Enjoy!
Veronica
