I'M FEELING ALL THAT ONE CAN FEEL THIS DAY. . . .

I woke up this morning feeling that I was lost, Wondering what is my next step for my life, feeling robbed of the joy that I once had. So, So many feelings that I just laid  back down and closed my eyes to sleep again. I wondering why today that the feeling of sadness weighs heavily over my mind?

I did find out that a friend of mine passed this morning. Could that be the sadness? Feeling as though I don't belong anywhere, that I don't fit in and wondering why time (which is so precious) takes so long to do what should be done in our lives.

I pray that there is not another feeling and going through what I am  going through. It's heart breaking, devastating, and hurtful. Time. . . .I wish that it would move swiftly. . .

Vee

RANDOM THOUGHTS . . . .

I've been taking walks through my own mind. Evaluating, organizing, rehashing, and all the things one does trying to correct a past mistake.

Mirror, Mirror on the wall. . . I fight daily to stand tall. Letting the waters rash away all my hurts, my disappointments in life. Why? Because my hurts have been hauled into an oblivion of pain. The more I wash, the cleaner I feel. Why are our hurts so dirty?

I'm in a tunnel of rebuilding. Trying to build a new life. . . moving along slowly, sometimes trying to figure where I should start and where the end may take me.

Lord God! My Father in Heaven. I feel Your presence with me, comforting me, smiling down on me. I needed to feel that. Every day I need to feel your presence. You've been good at giving me that added presence and you've often eased it away so that my faith kicks in to know that even when I don't feel you . . . . . I know you are there.

I love you Lord. Without You there would be no me. Daily I hunger for your touch, Your breath against my dry bones. Often I want to be alone with just You, talking with You, listening for Your instructions, Your guidance, and Your constant Love for me. 

No one loves me like you Lord. My faults, my ups, my downs, and my turmoils. 

I depend on You always. No longer will I depend on the human nature of others. 

AMEN!