MY ANGEL WATCHES OVER ME. . .

Sometimes I wish that I could have the power to push time back to where I knew life was so much better for me. I had my share of problems, but I counted more on my Heavenly Father more to bring me out. I was so much happier than I realized. I was more in love with life, pleased with myself, my self-esteem was better than it is now.

Unfortunately, life is not like that. I thank God for assigning an Angel to watch over me. I'm trying so hard to be happy, to be positive about my life, but circumstances won't allow it.

I once had promised myself that I would never marry. I should have kept that promise to myself. I've lost more of myself in this marriage than I have ever lost in my whole life. The death of my parents have not weighed on me as much as this marriage has. That is saying a lot. 

I hurt every day in this marriage, I cry every day in this marriage, I scream for God to deliver me from this marriage. I have no where to go, No income to leave, and No will to do it, but I pray everyday for my husband to be a husband to me. I'm trapped. 

I've thought about having an affair, but so scared of the consequences of God because he did not install that into me when He saved me. Scared to have a male friend because it may end up into something that I may regret. So I stay inside this HELL waiting for a miracle. 

Yes, it's love that keeps me hanging on. Yes it's faith that pushes me through to the end, and yes it's my belief in the institute of marriage that drives me.

Anyone that reads this, please pray for me. Pray that God gives me a clear direction on what to do.

Thank You Lord For My Guardian ANGEL!

Vee