NO LOOKING BACK. . .

Everyone finds themselves making decisions that we are forced to make. Some decisions are good and some decisions hurt us, but we have to make them.

The story of Lot's wife in the bible has been on my mind so much as of late. God gave Lot a choice and Lot chose the greater path and that was being obedient to God's word and moving forward as God desired him to do. God specifically asked Lot not to look back at what he was leaving.

On the other hand, Lot's wife looked back, knowing full well what would happen, but she looked back any way. I don't know what others interpret that to mean, but I see it as if Lot's wife longed to be in the place that they just left with so much sin and destruction. I feel that she wanted to be where she left from.

The story describes so much of my life and the decisions that I am face to make. As I was sitting down contemplating on some issues that I have been asking God to resolve for me, the story of Lot entered my mind.

I think that at that moment, I realized that my decision is made. When I do what I need to do. . . I CAN NOT LOOK BACK! Sooooooo. . . I am making sure that everything in my heart and mind is right before the eyes of God . . . So that when I do what I must do . . . I will be moving forward and not looking back.

Father God . . .
I am at a crossroad in my life not knowing what to do in the situation that I am in.
Something has to give. My heart says stay, but the reasonable mind says go. I have
endured, I have, I have pleaded, I've lost my pride and I have begged. There's
no sense in what has happened to me and continues to happen to me.
I long for resolutions in my life and in order to get them, I feel that I must leave.
Once I leave Lord. . . . I can not look back! I have to move forward to a place
where peace abides and true love abides. It's not here with my husband.
Help me to forgive and above all . . .Help me to continue to love him
regardless of what has happened between us.

I count it done and I receive the break through that is coming my way. . .
In the Precious Name of Jesus. . .
Your Servant
Veronica

YET I RISE . . . .

There are a lot of sayings that Christian People often say. Some sayings are: "If it weren't for the Lord, I wouldn't know where I would be", "If God is on my side, who could be against me" . . . and the list can go on.

Yes, all those sayings are true. I testify to that fact in my life and I too say those things with gumption, with zest, with a know like I have never known before.

Yes, with God's help I can say that I am a survivor, I can say that I am truly blessed, I can say that God has made me a victorious woman in spite of all that I have been through. As Mya Angelo has said: Yet I rise, but I say over the hills of despair, over the hills of lost, and over the hills of hurt. . . Yet I rise! I rise because Christ rises every day in my life. I rise because it is He that encourage me, I rise because Christ is my anchor in every storm. I rise. . . I rise. . . I rise!

Father God. . . there are decisions in my life that I must make. I am unable to make them with clarity. I need you to guide me in what I must do. This weary soul has risen above all that has happened to me because you deemed it so. Guide me in the right direction Lord. I know that there will be no turning back when decisions are made. Give me clarity Lord. Continue to give me peace. Continue to protect me Lord and cover me in everything that I do.
I give you all praise and all glory!
In Jesus Name I pray. . .
Your Servant . . . Your Daughter. . .
Veronica